Thursday, December 15, 2022

Book 36: Santa Daddy by Keira Andrews

My third Christmas romance of 2022! This one was right in the middle of the pack - it was a novella, so it didn't suffer in the same way that the second book did, and I did enjoy it, but it didn't quite hit my tropes the same way the first one did. This is about an older man finding love again 8 years after the death of his husband, and the guy who helps break him out of his shell again, and a lot of that is very good for me but I didn't quite buy the chemistry between these two characters in particular? Also I don't particularly have any feelings about sexy santa, which may help with this book, lol. 

Grade: C

Thursday, December 8, 2022

Book 35: Merry Cherry Christmas by Keira Andrews

Okay, so the first Christmas romance I read this year was a novella, and then I picked up this one by the same author, and it's a novel, and man. I think it's just trying to be too much? The pace of the book is off, and the two big things that both characters are struggling with are both too slight and too significant to be dealt with in a book this size, and idk. Jeremy is a freshman in college who's been somewhat disowned by his family for coming out as gay, he's socially awkward, and he's never even kissed a guy. Max is a popular senior who plays football and is openly queer and confident, and they have a meet cute and then Max offers to be his no strings friends with benefits. Would you believe that feelings happen? Then Max invites him home for Christmas, and there are plot obstacles and a poor dude who gets in the middle and idk, it just doesn't quite work the way I wanted it to. Not a bad read, just not as good as other books by this same author. 

Grade: C

Thursday, December 1, 2022

Book 34: Where the Lovelight Gleams by Keira Andrews

The first of my yearly gay Christmas romances! I enjoyed this one a lot, which is a tight little novella - frankly my preferred length for most Christmas romances - about two actors who are costars playing characters in love who end up spending Christmas together at a family cabin in Canada. One of the guys is out and knows he's in love with the other one, and the other guy is dating a woman but coming to terms with the fact that maybe he's not actually straight. He and his girlfriend break up, he comes to spend Christmas with his costar in Canada, and shenanigans ensue! The required third act conflict is a BIT over the top for me, but the classic hurt/comfort reconciliation is great, so overall I had a great time with this one. 

Grade: B

Friday, September 2, 2022

Book 33: Sisters of the Vast Black by Lina Rather

I really enjoyed this novella!! It was such an interesting sci-fi space opera setup about a convent of nuns in a living spaceship traveling through the galaxy who discover that their larger leadership is corrupt. They respond in fascinating ways, and all of them have really compelling relationships with each other and dynamics and secrets, and idk! It's just WEIRD in exactly the way I want these kinds of speculative fiction novellas to be. 

Grade: A

Thursday, September 1, 2022

Book 32: Moon Over Soho by Ben Aaronovitch

The second book in the Rivers of London series! I liked this one, though not quite as much as the first one, which had the benefit of being the introduction to the world, while this one just expands on it and gets more into Peter's family history. Luckily, that story is still pretty good! Just slightly less memorable. 

Grade: B

Friday, August 19, 2022

Book 31: Miranda in Milan by Katharine Duckett

 Boy, this novella did not work for me. As is probably evident from the title, it's a story about Miranda from The Tempest living in Milan after the end of the play. This should really be my jam, or at least interesting to me. But both the story and the writing didn't capture me, and I felt really disappointed by it. This is just something that happens with books sometimes, and it's a bummer!

Grade: C

Thursday, August 4, 2022

Book 30: A Spindle Splintered by Alix E. Harrow

 A book club book! This is a fairly standard modern retelling/adaptation of a fairy tale, in this case Sleeping Beauty, in which the princess is a young woman named Zinnia who has a chronic, fatal illness. Her best friend sets up a birthday celebration for her that turns this into a portal fantasy, and she goes through a journey to potentially save both her life and the life of the princess she meets in that other universe. 

I enjoyed this novella, but I think I wanted/hoped for a bit more - there's an interaction in the portal section of the story that almost but not quite knocked my socks off, and it made me think that the story had gotten a bit held back in order to make it fit a more standard narrative. Basically I thought that this story could have been much weirder and broken more of the narrative expectations, and it would have felt both more cohesive to me and more interesting. But it was still a fun read. 

Grade: B

Thursday, July 28, 2022

Book 29: Moonflower Murders by Anthony Horowitz

Another mystery! This is the second one in the series that started with Magpie Murders, which I enjoyed a lot. This one has a similar framing device, except that the order of operations is slightly different: in the first book, the book editor had to solve the real life murder in order to solve the incomplete mystery manuscript, and in this one, the answer to one and possibly two real life murders can be found in a complete published mystery. 

This book was something of a pickle for me - the overall structure of the mystery worked just as well for me as the first book did, where in all three mysteries the reveals and explanations were clever and fit together perfectly, even though I couldn't have predicted the outcome. Unfortunately, there is also a very clear thread of homophobia running throughout this book, one that started in the first book but didn't fully bloom until the sequel. I'm sure that the defense of it would simply be that "well there really are some gay men who are like that" and so forth, but I started to have a bad feeling about it halfway through the story, and then by the end it was about as bad and frankly cliched as it could be. I really enjoy the mystery within the mystery of the structure, but I really can't in good conscience recommend this book. 

Grade: C 

Friday, July 8, 2022

Book 28: Come Tumbling Down by Seanan McGuire

The next novella in the Wayward Children series! I am experiencing a bit of diminishing returns at this point with this series, unfortunately - I'm still enjoying the stories individually, but I want them to have more an arc, I think? This one definitely completes a story involving two of the major characters, and I do enjoy that element, but something about how they're all fitting together isn't delivering the satisfaction I want from a series of novellas that don't really exist as standalone stories anymore. I was happy to see Jack triumph, but the journey left me a bit cold. 

Grade: B

Sunday, May 8, 2022

Book 27: In An Absent Dream by Seanan McGuire

There are times when I know that it's less that the books I'm reading aren't good, and it's more that I'm reading them badly. This is the fourth book in the Wayward Children series, and the second one that focuses on one character's experience before they make it to the school. The main character in the story is Lundy, and the world she found the door to is the Goblin Market. 

The entire system of the Goblin Market is built around the concept of fair value - if you ask something of someone, you need to provide them fair value in exchange, and if you're unable to, you are in their debt. The debt in this world (and in our world, if you leave) is a physical change; once you are too far in debt, you lose your humanity and become a bird. Lundy tries desperately to have her life in the Goblin Market without giving up her life at home, especially for her younger sister. But she is unable to properly calibrate the fair value required for such a thing. It is a sad story that feels extremely unfair, perhaps especially because it is a world that presents itself as being completely in balance, and I had a hard time with it emotionally. 

Grade: B

Saturday, May 7, 2022

Book 26: An Unnatural Life by Erin K. Wagner

Another free Tor novella about humans and robots! This one fucked me up less regarding the pandemic, but did slightly fuck me up in terms of issues around legal rights and so forth, so it is possible that it is the world that's fucking me up rather than the fiction I'm consuming. Who could have guessed. 

This one centers on a woman named Aiya, who is a lawyer living on a space colony. She works for a program that is designed to rehabilitate robots who have committed crimes, but then she ends up representing one who has been wrongfully accused of murder. It deals with lots of questions about agency and control and who we hold responsible for various elements in society, and once again it was a story that was hard for me to engage with at the moment. But I found it very interesting overall. 

Grade: B

Friday, May 6, 2022

Book 25: Unlocked by John Scalzi

This was a free Tor download, and I've been meaning to read something by Scalzi for a while, so I thought sure! I'll give it a shot! And then discovered that it was a novella written in 2014 about a respiratory pandemic that overran the world and eventually resulted in some people's bodies no longer working, but their minds still did, so people invented a robot to interface with the people's minds to become that person out in the world, and it turns out I just cannot handle this particular story and the way politics are depicted right now! I found the things that were accurate to be just as upsetting as the things that weren't, and yeah. I have no idea how to objectively rate this, so take this grade as being more of a reflection of what I can handle reading rather than a judgment on the quality of the writing or storytelling. 

Grade: C

Thursday, May 5, 2022

Book 24: In Other Lands by Sarah Rees Brennan

Another portal fantasy! And another book I have owned for a very long time and kept waiting for the "right time" to read, for some reason, even though I have read many other things by this author that I've enjoyed. And shockingly, I enjoyed this one, too!

Elliot is thirteen when he first crosses over into the Borderlands, and discovers that in this magical portal land, there's a training camp where everyone either learns how to fight or how to engage in diplomacy. But no one is actually very interested in using diplomacy as a means of resolving disputes among humans and elves and trolls and banshees and mermaids and so forth, at least not before he arrived. He also immediately falls in love with a beautiful elf named Serene, and in hate with a beautiful boy named Luke Sunborn, who comes from a famous family of warriors. And then it's adventures and battles and multiple romances and misunderstandings and family of origin woes and found family woes and comings out and pining and, of course, a unicorn sighting. It is a delight, in other words, though I think the pacing could have been tightened up a bit in the second half of the novel, but even when things seemed to go on a bit longer than they actually needed to, I had a great time reading it. 

Grade: A 

Saturday, April 30, 2022

Book 23: Midnight Riot by Ben Aaronovitch

After meaning to read the Rivers of London series for years, I have finally begun! Turns out it's good. 

It's very interesting what my brain retained about the series from what I had heard from others. I knew it was a detective series, essentially, about a guy named Peter (correct) who was training under an experienced detective (also correct, his superior is Thomas Nightingale). But I had forgotten that it was also a supernatural series, which made the first mention of a ghost pretty exciting, and I also went into expecting a standard white English copper character, and instead Peter Grant is biracial and from North London and quite young, all of which makes him (and the first book of the series) much more interesting than I expected. 

The book reads very much like the first in a series, setting up the world and the central figures in it, and I had been more in a traditional mystery structure mood than I realized when I started reading it and so it took me a bit to get into the rhythm of the book. But in the end I enjoyed it quite a bit, and Peter is a great character, with his at times almost Jim Butcher-level over the top lusting for every female character introduced in the book my only true complaint. It's the only element of the storytelling that felt at all dated to me, but it's worth putting up with for the rest of the narrative. 

Grade: B 

Friday, April 29, 2022

Book 22: Beneath the Sugar Sky by Seanan McGuire

The third book in the Wayward Children series! This was the one that made me realize that the second book wasn't a standalone, but was in fact a prequel/backstory sort of thing, because we returned to the school directly after the events of the first book. This story reintroduced my favorite character Kade, and added a new character named Cora who I absolutely loved. She's a fat girl who found her world as a mermaid, where her body did exactly what it was supposed to do, and it was just a really lovely depiction of what it is to be "special" and yet not fit the supposed mold of even that. These books have all been extremely thoughtful in how it approaches gender, and how children are unnecessarily shaped within a binary, and I liked how the author approached weight and appearance in a similar way.   

The plot of this one is essentially a journey through various other worlds, and it ends in a candy world with a baker at the center of it, and the whole thing felt like reading a video game in the best way, with all of them learning the logic (or nonsense) that governs the various places they traveled to. I'm excited to find out whether the fourth book in the series will return to the school, or if it will also take place primarily beyond the doors. 

Grade: A 

Thursday, April 28, 2022

Book 21: Magpie Murders by Anthony Horowitz

Another mystery, but this time a modern one! However, it's a modern one masquerading as a post-WWII one, all wrapped up in an enigma, you know how it goes. 

The framing device for this book is that Susan, a book editor in modern London, has received the manuscript for the ninth and final book in the Atticus Pund mystery series, which is set in a small English village in the 1950s and has all of the trappings you would expect from this. The first two hundred pages of the book are that novel, until suddenly it stops at the end of the penultimate chapter on the cliffhanger of who's responsible for the murders. Susan doesn't have the final chapter, and neither does the CEO of the publishing house. The author, Alan Conway, must have it, except he died by suicide over the weekend...or did he?

This is a book in which we get two mysteries for the price of one, a classic whodunit in the style of Christie, and a contemporary meta mystery in which a book editor must assume the role of the detective, to varying degrees of success. It leaves you with one heck of a cliffhanger midway through the book and forces you to both abandon the pretense of the mystery you first started to read as being 'real' and then introduces a new one, which parallels and echoes the first one in interesting ways. It's not easy to keep a reader invested in both of the mysteries at once, but the author definitely pulls it off. I'm very glad I read this particular book after spending a month or two reading a number of the classic mysteries so I had a better grounding in the tropes this books swims around in. Horowitz has written a number of other books (as well as Midsomer Murders and Foyle's War and Poirot, this is a man who knows what genre he wants to write) and I'm afraid my TBR pile is about to get unexpectedly bigger once again. 

Grade: A 

Friday, April 22, 2022

Book 20: The Geek Who Saved Christmas by Annabeth Albert

Look, sometimes you just need to read a Christmas m/m romance novel right after Easter. 

This one was...fine? The set up was great: a cute guy named Gideon who's obsessed with decorating for Christmas (but is secretly sad!) and a gruff guy named Paul who doesn't have time or space in his heart for such things but then needs to convince his younger brother that he's okay when he comes to visit for Christmas, and what better way to do that than with tons of Christmas lights! It's full of Christmas planning and discussions of traditions and all of that, and the two leads have decent chemistry, but there's not nearly enough actual conflict in their romance or in the overall story to sustain a full-length novel, so by the end I was bored. Would be a great 20K fic, but it doesn't hold up to a 250+ page book. 

Grade: C 

Thursday, April 21, 2022

Book 19: Death in a White Tie by Ngaio Marsh

My foray into classic English society mysteries continue! I was recommended this book at some point, by...someone (possibly my sister-in-law? Who can say), and unlike Christie, I was entirely unfamiliar with this author culturally. She was also a woman writing mysteries in the first half of the twentieth century, although she was from New Zealand rather than England. The focus of her books (at least based on this one) feels quite similar to Christie's - there was a blackmailer in the upper crust of 1930's English society, one man learns too much, and he ends up dead. 

There's also an inspector named Roderick Alleyn who knew the dead man quite well and feels responsible, but he holds it together long enough to piece together both the blackmail scheme and the murder. It was a quite pleasant mystery with interesting characters and a number of unexpected secrets and so forth. I was also very pleased that while there is a touch of the standard English mystery racism present, it wasn't too bad...at least not until the very short epilogue which takes place in China, and well. The less said about that the better. That caveat aside, a lovely book to read on the couch under the blankets while waiting for spring to actually start. 

Grade: B

Wednesday, April 6, 2022

Book 18: Down Among the Sticks and Bones by Seanan McGuire

I have finally returned to Wayward Children series! And frankly, I probably should have reread Every Heart a Doorway before I picked up this one, because I read that novella in November 2019 and it turns out I retained practically nothing from that time, can't imagine why, etc. As a result, I didn't remember the roles that Jack and Jill played in that book when I read this one, which tells the story of what they experienced in the world they found through their door. This book still works without that knowledge, which is to its credit, but I am sure there are parts of the story that I would have appreciated more had I recognized the connection before reading the third book in the series shortly after. I do like the structure, though, of switching between stories taking place after the children have returned to earth and the direct stories of how they found their doors - the backstories, if you will. I expect that once I read through the next three books I'm going to feel the need to finally reread the first one, and I'm excited to find out what exactly that looks like. 

Grade: B

Wednesday, March 30, 2022

Book 17: Death on the Nile by Agatha Christie

Another Christie mystery! This is the first one I've read after already seeing an adaptation of it. I watched the 2022 movie version of it, enjoyed it, and also immediately wondered how much of it differed from the book. The answer: a fair amount, but very little of the central mystery. 

This particular mystery is essentially a travelogue, which make it both extremely fun and also sometimes painful to read because it was written by a British woman in the 1930s who doesn't merely think that imperialism is good, she also wouldn't (or at least doesn't appear to in this book) even consider imperialism to be something that needed to be defended. The British Empire is simply a fact of the world, and one that's uncontroversial and unchallenged. So that makes her descriptions of Egypt and the people who live and work there to be the definition of casually racist, and her presentation of the various suspects and their lives can be uncomfortable at times for similar reasons. However, with that rather strong caveat noted, I still did have a nice time reading it, not least because thinking about adaptation is something I enjoy and there were a number elements to consider from that standpoint. I might recommend the movie instead, though, either the 2022 version or the 1978 one, which is apparently much more faithful to the original story. 

Grade: B

Book 16: Hercule Poirot's Christmas by Agatha Christie

My second Christie mystery! And my first Poirot, to boot. I confess that I read this one next because it had Christmas in the title and that is enough for me!! But I was rewarded for my Christmas obsession with a classic country house Christmas murder of a family patriarch, with a house full of family members who all have good reasons to want him dead. 

One of the fun parts of reading Christie well after seeing and reading a fair amount of media that is directly inspired by it is recognizing the source. Knives Out owes such an obvious debt to Christie, and it's just neat to be able to see what it's riffing on, and also how it's commenting on it. I don't know if Rian Johnson was a fan of this book in particular, but I would be very surprised if he hadn't read it. If I have a complaint about this book it's that it's not all that Christmas-y in feel, but the set up and murder itself is a lot of fun and the answer did evade me, even though it was all staring me right in the face. A lovely read for late spring when the weather turns cold again for one final (hopefully) freeze. 

Grade: B

Thursday, March 24, 2022

Book 15: And Then There Were None by Agatha Christie

I am starting my Christie murder mystery read! I watched the recent adaptation of Murder on the Orient Express, which I went into unspoiled, and it made me want to read and watch her other very famous works before I managed to learn too much! 

I began with this one, because while I didn't know the particulars or the 'solution,' I had a general sort of cultural osmosis about this story. I knew that it began with ten people isolated together, and that one by one they began dying. However, it turns out the setting and overall setup adds a lot! Ten people who are mostly strangers, alone together in a house on a small island off the southern coast of England, with checkered pasts to say the least. 

Mystery novels have never been my genre, but I have to say that reading this made me really understand the appeal. It was extremely nice to be able to read a book in one sitting that gave me all of the intrigue that I could want, and also provided the answer. I don't read books with the aim of figuring out the secret, and even if I had tried I don't think I could have figured it all out, but I did really enjoy how well it all fit together in the end. It's not a perfect book -- it has all of the class and race issues you might expect from a book written by an Englishwoman in the 1930s, with some casual antisemitism that caught me a bit off-guard right off the bat -- but I still really enjoyed it. 

Grade: B 

Wednesday, March 23, 2022

Book 14: Several People are Typing by Calvin Kasulke

Well, I clearly needed a change of pace in my reading, and this is definitely a lighter book than what I've been reading recently! It's a book club book, and for once I've managed to finish it well before we're meeting. This is partly because the entire story is told through Slack conversations in various channels of a PR firm, which makes it an extremely quick read. It centers on Gerard, who one day discovers that he has somehow become disconnected from his physical body and now only exists in Slack.

Luckily (?) for him, he's still able to do his job fully remotely, and since he no longer needs sleep or can do anything else, his productivity has skyrocketed. He's helped by Pradeep, one of his co-workers, who helps keep his body alive while he's stuck in Slack, and the slackbot, who shows him how to explore all of the channels and is generally quite helpful and also slightly creepy. It is a fun exploration of how communication happens online and I really enjoyed it.

Grade: B   

Tuesday, March 22, 2022

Book 13: Out of Office by Anne Helen Petersen and Charlie Warzel

Boy, this book. I'm not entirely sure what I expected from this book exactly, beyond it being an overview of how "working from home" worked before the pandemic and how it works now as we enter the third year of the pandemic and how it could work in the future. And to its great credit, it's not a book that attempts to argue that employees are the ones who can and should be "optimizing" how remote work functions for white collar office workers; it's very clear about the fact that issues with remote work are systemic and institution based rather than on the backs of individuals, and therefore organizations and policymakers have the power to change how they work. But being focused on that source of responsibility also made it a deeply depressing read for me at the moment. It's not intended to be; they describe their view of the future of work as being cautiously hopeful, precisely because so many industries are in flux at the moment and that can be fertile ground for change. But the book's historical overview of how the concept of work (and office work specifically) has changed over the past century in the U.S. was so upsetting and it made me feel like what even is the point of any of this, all jobs suck. Which I definitely understand is more of a reflection of my own state of mind about work rather than a rational reflection on what work of any kind may look like in a year or five years or ten. However, it definitely also pointed out a fundamental flaw with how I want to engage with nonfiction at the moment: I want ways to fix intractable problems but I also want to be able to believe those fixes are possible and aren't just wishful thinking called "self-empowerment." And those kinds of solutions feel like they're in short supply at the moment! None of which is the book's fault, but also I don't know if I'm actually able to read these kinds of books at the moment the way they should be read.  

Grade: A

Tuesday, February 22, 2022

Book 12: Sword Stone Table: Old Legends, New Voices

Note: I know one of the authors in this anthology socially. 

A book club book! This is a collection of stories written by marginalized voices that are inspired by Arthurian myths and characters, divided into three sections: Once, Present and Future. The stories contained in Once take place in ye olde England but either center women or otherwise expand the white, male, straight focus of the characters and myths, while the Present and Future take place in a fairly broad concept of both time periods but also reinvent the stories in ways beyond the setting. 

The joy of an anthology is that while you're unlikely to love all of the stories included, you will likely find a number of standouts. And this is one where my feelings on the stories range from "well that was nice!" to "oh I LOVE this," so I'm going to highlight a few of my favorites. One aspect I really enjoyed about the three sections is the opportunity to see how different writers take on the same character across the eras, and my favorites were three stories inspired by the Lady of Shalott, an Arthurian figure I wasn't particularly familiar with prior to reading this anthology. I've always been slightly intimidated by Arthurian myths because there's not just one canon source, so getting to read Passing Fair and Young, Flat White and A Shadow in Amber, three stories which all approach the Lady of Shalott in wildly different ways, made me really understand all of the various ways the myths have all been retold and molded for different eras and with different intentions. It made me want to read more versions of these stories, and then return to this anthology with a deeper grounding in the myths. A really lovely collection. 

Grade: A

Sunday, January 30, 2022

Book 11: Wild by Cheryl Strayed

I don't know why exactly I decided that I needed to read this book now, since it's not exactly a new book. It's also a style of book that was once dominant in publishing (memoir of How Someone Dealt with Trauma) that's become less common, and I had the thought that maybe when it felt less like the entire world was in one constant state of trauma, we had more space for equally real and valid individual traumas. Do we have the capacity for a memoir about how someone dealt with the unexpected death of a parent to cancer, given the global pandemic and failing democracy and climate change and war?

Possibly I don't have the capacity for that, but I still found this book fascinating. It's a book about a woman leaving her marriage, selling everything she owns and flying to California to hike the Pacific Crest Trail alone, despite the fact that she had done very little hiking (and no thru hiking), because it felt like it was what she had to do to process her mother's death. The author is so extraordinarily lucky; the degree to which she was unprepared for the reality of this task was very stressful for me just to read about, let alone experience. But it also made me think about how infrequently I do anything without doing everything I can in my power to be as prepared as possible, in order to not appear like I don't know what I'm doing (even when I don't), and how exhausting that is, too. It's also a book about a time that's totally different in many ways; it was published in the early 2010s, but her trek took place in 1995, when if you left for a hike like this, you were simply out of contact except for when you pick up your supply boxes at the small towns in between multiday hikes. 

It made me weirdly nostalgic for the '90s, an era which had its own laundry list of Bad Institutional Things (and which contain the seeds of many of the worst aspects of today's problems), but which also feels like a time when it was more possible to just do things! Anything! Try something else! This is less a "boy weren't things better in the '90s" reflection, because while I'd rather not live in a pandemic, I don't actually think that things were better or simpler or whatever. Maybe I'm just reflecting on the fact that I was never the kind of young adult that Cheryl Strayed was, for better or for worse, and it feels less and less likely that I will ever be that kind of adult in any age, and sometimes that feels like my own loss. 

(Also, I reread part of A Walk in the Woods, which is a book by Bill Bryson about his own ill-planned hike on the Appalachian Trail that same year, and which was undertaken for wildly different reasons, and boy is that a great compare and contrast of what it was to be a young white woman in the '90s and a middle age white man in the exact same time period.) 

Grade: A  

Saturday, January 29, 2022

Book 10: A Marvellous Light by Freya Marske

Man I had such a nice time reading this book! It was one of those that I started and finished in one day, because I was so eager to see where the story went. 

This is definitely one of those books where the overall synopsis does a lot of the heavy lifting: if a story about gays in magical Edwardian England sounds like it'll be up your alley, it almost certainly will be. The slow burn of interest between Robin, a baronet struggling with providing for his sister after his sister's death, and Edwin, a magician whose power is small enough to be the black sheep of his magical family, is wonderful. I also loved the way magic works within the "normal" history of England, and how it creates an unequal hierarchy that leads to bad decisions by many characters. 

It's a rare book that manages to be equally interested in the romance (and sex!) at the heart of the story as it in the historical and magical worldbuilding; it manages to really nail both genres, and I'm so glad that it's the first book of a trilogy so I can spend more time in this world with these characters (and new ones as well). 

Grade: A

Tuesday, January 25, 2022

Book 9: The Gentle Art of Fortune Hunting by KJ Charles

A big change of pace from my last book, quite intentionally! This was such a satisfying read, and one that I started at around 8 p.m. intending to only read for a couple of hours, and then I ended up finishing it all that night. 

This is a delightful regency romance that focuses on the marriage mart, and specifically on a beautiful brother and sister who are attempting to secure favorable matches with the appearance of gentility and connections while possessing none. Robin is yet another KJ Charles character in the mold of the likeable con artist, who is doing everything he can to help his sister secure a truly advantageous match. But it's a really interesting book that doesn't shy away from how ultimately unsatisfying a marriage like that would be, even with financial security, and not merely from the standpoint of enduring a loveless marriage for the sake of wealth: it takes seriously just how easy it is to make a woman suffer in a marriage like that, with no recourse at all. 

Robin is thwarted in his plans to marry a plain heiress by her uncle John Hartlebury (known as Hart), who can tell that Robin isn't all he seems but is also drawn to him. There's a disastrous evening of gambling that KJ Charles fans may find a bit familiar in the best of ways, but the connection between the two of them develops in a very different way, and I found the ultimate resolution to be really quite lovely. Hart's niece Alice is also a wonderful character, and this book delivered all of the best things for the characters who deserve them, and none for those who don't. 

Grade: A 

Monday, January 17, 2022

Book 8: The Ghost Road by Pat Barker

Boy, this book really fucked me up! Which isn't exactly unexpected, it's the final novel in a trilogy about WWI, so it's not a surprise that an anti-war novel would affect me like this. But it took me a long time to get through the final hundred pages, because I dreaded what was coming so much. 

This third book is about the process of Billy Prior preparing to go back to France at the end of the summer in 1918, intercut with Dr. River's memories of his childhood and family friendship with Charles Dodgson and his experiences studying death rituals in Melanesia. The narrative follows Billy back to France, using diary entries and a letter home as well as prose to tell the story of the final months of the war. He was assigned to the same unit as Wilfred Owen, who I knew just enough about as a historical figure to know that my dread was warranted. 

While Billy and the troops are at war, bored for 23 hours a day and then terrified for the other one, Dr. Rivers continues to work with injured men and contemplate his own role in the entire endeavor. Billy leaves his now-fiancée to head back to the front and loves and misses her desperately, while also sating his constant need with men and women when he can. And while I was prepared for more death and destruction caused by war, I was somehow not expecting the first appearance of the influenza pandemic, which was harder to deal with at the moment for obvious reasons. There's a lot to this book, and this trilogy, and it makes me want to both reread the whole series and to read all of the war poetry of this era and just a whole lot of history about this war and what led to it, but first I think I'm going to take a break and read some romance novels or something, because boy.  

Grade: A 

Wednesday, January 12, 2022

Book 7: Daybreak by Kate Hawthorn

A winter contemporary m/m romance! I had high hopes for this one, which involves a thirty year old widower who's certain he'll never find love again even three years after the sudden death of his husband, and a cute young grad student who's on a roadtrip trying to run away from every part of his life he can't deal with. That's a setup I am generally behind, including the classic car breaking down and there's only one mechanic who can help and no hotels around so sure, why don't you stay with me, but it never quite clicked for me. One way I know I'm not as invested in a romance novel as I should be is when I'm constantly questioning things, like what kind of cross-country roadtrip takes you to Burlington, Vermont on the way to New Hampshire, given the highway system in upstate New York and New England. But the main issue is that they both had too MANY issues, and the conflict as it were goes on for two long. This is a story that could handle being a novella much better than a full length novel. 

Grade: C 

Tuesday, January 11, 2022

Book 6: How to be Alone by Lane Moore

 This is another book I ended up taking out from the library as a result of a podcast, and man. It's not the easiest of reads? It's a book about trauma, and how the specific lessons you learn about love as a child and teenager stay with you, and how to create a life within that, if not exactly in spite of it. It's not a trauma porn book; while some of the elements of her experiences are specified, a lot of it is referred to rather than laid out for the reader's perusal, which definitely shifts the emphasis away from being one of the standard mid-2000s memoirs that were all anyone (or me in any case) read for a while. 

It's a book that feels challenging to me in a very 'well you just have to sit with this, you can't fix it even if you want to' way. The format is a series of essays, which could be read as individual pieces (and some of them were published that way), but for me the strength of the book is the cumulation of all of them. The weight of the last essay is built upon all of the rest. I'm glad that I read this book after I read Thanks for Waiting, because this is a book that doesn't have a neat narrative ending; this is a book about a woman who desperately wants a found family, and a soulmate, and to know how to have 'normal' emotional connections with people, and it doesn't end with her married and/or fixed. But it still ends in a place that leaves you with hope and a sense of possibility, rather than despair or a nice, pat narrative destination. I don't know. This book kind of fucked me up, and I'm glad I read it. 

Grade: A 

Monday, January 10, 2022

Book 5: Proper English by KJ Charles

Okay, so you know how there are some books that you keep thinking that you should read but never do because the timing is wrong or whatever? Sometimes I end up not reading books because of SPITE, and I'm very glad in this case that I was finally able to let go of it.

This is a prequel to Think of England, one of my very favorite historical queer romances, and for years we had been hoping for a sequel about the main pairing in that book, and instead we got a prequel about a different (but also delightful) side pairing in that same book. And basically, it took reading all of the Will Darling trilogy which gives us some glimpses of the future for the ToE pairing for me to let that go and be able to enjoy reading about Pat and Fen's origin story. I can say both that I am delighted I was finally at a point where I could read this for them, because it is a romp and a half, and glad that I didn't force myself to read it when I was still feeling bitter, because I think I would have ended up ruining it for myself.

This is another mystery at an English country house at the turn of the twentieth century, and this time our focus is on Pat, who is for the first time trying to figure out what to do with her life now that her eldest brother has married and she's no longer needed to manage the family estate. While there she encounters Fen, the superficially silly fiancee of one of her oldest friends who is hosting the shooting party, a match she finds extremely puzzling. She teaches Fen how to shoot, and the two of them become closer as they all deal with the brother-in-law of their host, who is terrible in basically every possible way. 

Pat's voice is wonderful, and the relationship that develops between her and Fen is truly delightful. The sex could have been hotter, if I am honest, but overall I had a great time reading this. 

Grade: B

Sunday, January 9, 2022

Book 4: Subtle Blood by KJ Charles

 The third book in the Will Darling trilogy! I've had this book since it came out, but I had put off reading it in part because the second book didn't work for me as well as the first one had and so I was sort of afraid it wouldn't land, either. 

I am delighted to report that my fears were unfounded! I really, really liked this one - the relationship between Will and Kim had new and believable conflict, instead of what was for me a recycled loss of trust/proving his sincerity etc. arc in the second novel. I also really enjoyed the overall mystery, which was both pretty twisty and resolved in a way that felt both surprising and like it fit. It's a really good conclusion for this world, and its connection to the Think of England books was also very satisfying. (It was also an interesting book to read in between the second and third books of the Regeneration trilogy, given the setting and how big a specter the Great War is in their lives.)

If I have any complaints about this book, it's that the author has once again introduced a sex act Chekhov's gun, i.e., the characters discuss doing something together and it's a whole thing and then they...don't. In this particular case, before the topic came up I was perfectly fine with Will never bottoming, and the emotional resolution of them actually talking about their feelings instead of fucking about them was good and satisfying, and I know that even in romance novels the desire to zig instead of always zagging is appealing, but also it feels like narrative edging to me and not the good kind! You can give us the emotional resolution AND the dangled carrot of New Sex in a later scene! Sigh. Still, even with that minor complaint, this third book was good enough that I can now wholeheartedly recommend the whole trilogy without any major reservations. 

Grade: A  

Saturday, January 8, 2022

Book 3: Thanks for Waiting by Doree Shafrir

One of the sources for new to me books (usually but not always nonfiction and memoirs) are the various podcasts I listen to. This was a book discussed on an episode of Longform last year, and it sounded pretty interesting and like it might be something of an encouraging read for me, a person who at times cannot believe she's in her early forties simply because I didn't have any idea that this is what being 40 (or 41 or 42) could look like. 

And well, it's KIND of an encouraging read in that way, but also not at all? The author is a very young GenXer, as opposed to be squarely in the no-man's land between the generations the way I am, and the main basis of her feeling like a late bloomer is that she wasn't married by the time her younger sister was, who also became a lawyer straight out of college, and I don't know! From a millennial standpoint her experience of grad school and chronically underpaid work in her twenties followed by good media jobs that were nevertheless unstable and fraught with sexism and old boys' clubs because: the media in her thirties followed by marriage and an eventual baby in her late thirties and early forties feels pretty standard! And I know that a memoir isn't about the technical reality of one's situation necessarily, it's about how it feels, but it was also the second book in a row that I read and had a feeling of....do I just not get how straight culture feels anymore. 

So yeah! A perfectly readable book, but not one that spoke to me the way I had anticipated or hoped for. 

Grade: B

Wednesday, January 5, 2022

Book 2: Nightbitch by Rachel Yoder

 The first book club book of the year! And for once, I have actually finished the book an entire day before our meeting, rather than twenty minutes before it begins. Progress! 

I have...mixed feelings about this book? Something? Like, it is definitely a book where I spent most of it feeling like I am much too queer for this story, but it's not just that. This is a book about a woman, who is only ever named "the mother," who is a stay-at-home mom for her 2 year old son while her husband ("husband") travels for the entire week most weeks, and she gave up her art career because it was impossible to manage the hours and the pumping and the everything with caring for her son, and of course her husband couldn't give up his job, because his job made the money, and so now she's living this trapped life while attempting to convince herself that if she just chooses this life, and chooses happiness and all that, it will all be okay. 

And then she starts to transform into a dog, and nightbitch is born. 

She finds a book written by an academic that explores women who transform into animals essentially across multiple cultures, which becomes something of a guidebook for her, and there's quite a lot of animal harm and death, and she navigates who she is as nightbitch while also getting to know the mommies of her town who are led by one of a dozen Jens, who of course is in a MLM for herbs, and there's a lot here and I get the point and I get the satire and I am just not sure I got much out of it being a whole book. I kept waiting for it to land more, or arrive someplace that would really hit me, and instead I kept feeling like, "well yes, of course she's an animal inside who's been denied her true self, that's the comp cishet game, also her husband was never good," and it is possible I am too....something for this book. I am unmarried, and I don't have children, and maybe I need to be or have one or both of those things in order to viscerally feel the truth of this book, or something. It is magical realism, and it is horror, but frankly I felt it could have leaned in a lot more to the horror of it all. 

Grade: B


Tuesday, January 4, 2022

Book 1: The Eye in the Door by Pat Barker

 The first book of the year! And boy, it kind of did me in. It's the second book in the Regeneration trilogy, and I think I may actually like it even better than the first one. But that may be because I have a better understanding of who these characters are now, rather than the inherent quality, and either way reading the second book made me want to immediately reread the first one. 

Part of what made this book hit so hard is that the focus is narrower; the protagonist is very clearly Billy Prior, who we follow through most of the novel. He's left the hospital for shellshocked soldiers and is now working for the Office of Munitions in London, helping the government spy on the pacifist movement. He's also having quite a bit of sex, some of it with a man named Charles Manning, who's an upper class officer out of the war with a leg wound. Another reason why I immediately liked this book is definitely that it's gay in a very different way than the first one. Pat Barker writes about bodies and how they fit together with such simple yet visceral language, and using that for both sex of all varieties as well as war violence as well as medical treatments is so effective. There's a common thread there that feels so grounded, which matches the character of Prior. He's grounded in his body, but his mind is split - he disassociates and blacks out, repeatedly, which also gives the book something of a mystery feel. 

Siegfried Sassoon and Dr. Rivers both come back as well, Sassoon after he's wounded in France. And he's also split, between what he told himself in order to accept going back and what the reality was. Dr. Rivers is also coming apart, even as he patches each of them back together. 

The women in this novel are also wonderful: Prior's girlfriend Sarah, who he only gets two days with, and two women from his childhood who are both convicted on trumped up charges of anti-war behavior. The book captures the division between civilian life and the front beautifully, and you see how unworkable the fracture was, what the people back at home had to believe, or else the only thing they could do was work against the war effort. But of course, from Prior's point of view, that didn't help any of the boys in France, either. 

I believe the first book in the trilogy was either the final novel assigned in a literature course I took, but we never got there in the syllabus, or it was required reading for a class I wanted to take but wasn't able to. Either way, I regret not having had the opportunity to study these books; there's so much in them that I actually want to be able to take the time with them and discuss them with others. But this will have to do. Onto the final one next. 

Grade: A

Saturday, January 1, 2022

2022 Master List

 Well, we made it to 2022! That's...something, I suppose. And the vast majority of the books that had been on this list last year have also made it onto this year's list, along with the twenty or so that I've already added to my physical and digital TBR piles. I have been reconsidering the entire premise of this book blog in recent days, since it's not as if I don't have more books waiting to be added to this list, either by buying them or taking them out from the library. This is not really a decluttering task or anything like that, because there will always be more books than I have space, or time, for. 

But! My current justification for continuing a quest that I have never come particularly close to completing is that all of these are books that at one time or another, I either bought for myself or was given, and every year I've read at least one of them that's made me go huh. So that's the reason I've held onto this. And some of them can immediately be given away at that point, but there's still something nice about that process. 

The other reason I have decided to continue with this whole thing this year is that I would like to add activities that are more mindful to my days. A lot of these books will also be escapes in various ways, but I would like to be more conscious of what I'm deciding to spend my hours and days on, rather than the constant itch scratching of twitter and other endless scrolling distractions. That doesn't always need to be filled by reading, but overall I think I'll have a better grasp on my days this way. Will it work? Maybe! I'd like to give it a shot, at least. 

As always there is a list of other books I would like to reread if I can manage it as well; I expect that the first two months of the year will involve a lot of time indoors in my apartment, and if I manage things right I'm hoping to get out the gate running. So let's aspire to some reading. 

And here are the books!