Book 16: Dearly Departed by Chip Pons

This book was mentioned on a newsletter as being a great m/m romance, and that was enough for me to request it on Libby! And there's so much in it that I like, and even more that I WANT to like, but. 

It's a classic grumpy-sunshine romance, where the grumpy is a funeral home director who always wears black and the sunshine is a florist, oh and also the funeral home director is literally Hades made mortal and the sunshine one is essentially Persephone only without the dubcon and so forth (but still with the grief!). Things I liked: great gay best friends for Levi (our Persephone), frank inclusions of bottoming prep including douching, and discussions of PrEP, and poppers appearing at a club, and in general these aren't queer men who exist as solo beacons in a straight world, they exist in a queer community in this decade. Now, would there be a gay club full of grinding men hooking up on the dancefloor in suburban New Jersey? Not in my experience, but they live in a Hallmark small town that's like every '90s show that has an inexplicable club in town. Call it Twin Peaks, call it Buffy, that's all fine. 

Things I liked less, or more to the point needed more of: this is one of those books where the concept is great, and a lot of the details are fun, but the actual feeling of the romance and them getting together just doesn't land for me. Part of it is that even with everything I liked above, they keep almost getting together physically and then waiting, waiting, waiting. And I love a slow burn, but there's a certain level of 'yes yes, one of you is literally a god who's been cast out, but what's the actual conflict' to the book. By the time they did finally kiss and then fuck for the first time, I felt like the story was done, and in fact we were only halfway through. 

This book also suffered from the thing where not only is it abundantly clear to the reader what the major issue each of the main characters is dealing with, they're also too aware of it. Bring back characters who have no self-awareness!!! It makes it all so pat and boring. 

Anyway! I don't regret reading it, even if I spent more time analyzing what did and didn't work and less time being swept away. 

Grade: B  

Book 15: The Wolf at the Door by Charlie Adhara

This month I'm reading a lot of monster-type fantasy in honor of spooky season in between a bunch of nonfiction books I've been meaning to get to, and this is the first one I finished! It's...fine. One part werewolves are real and known and so there's a joint task force of sorts between human police and wolf law enforcement to investigate a string of murders that appear to be wolf-related up in Maine, and one part love story between the new partners who are leading a case together and don't get along! And listen, I've read a metric ton of The Sentinel fanfic, that's a setup that I'm really here for generally speaking. But because you know the genre is romance, you know they're getting together, and the pacing of all of the reveals feels way too slow and just off. It's okay to be a bit ahead of your pov character, but in this case the shoe drops so late for him that he feels much dumber than I think he's meant to be. Both the romance and the mystery at the heart of the story are fine, but this book took the long way to get there. 

Also, the lead character's names just felt wrong for him, I kept reading scenes with seventeen different cops in them and forgetting which one was our guy because the name was so incongruous for whatever reason. A minor complaint, but just one more way in which the book didn't fully hold me. There's a sequel, and I was hoping this would be a fun gay werewolf series for me to read, but unfortunately I think it's a one and done. 

Grade: C

Book 14: Lives of the Saints by Nancy Lemann

A book a friend mentioned in a group chat and I decided to see if the library had it, and indeed it did! A short novel about a woman in New Orleans and the absolute disaster of a man who she loves, that takes place in a hazy idea of then-contemporary day (the book was published in 1985). It depicts an idea of the white South that floats between eras; the first scene is at a wedding, and I thought it was in the 1920s, but then a passing reference made it clear it was post-WWII, so I thought maybe the early 1960s, and then there are enough other identifying objects that mean it can only be in the mid-1980s. But the lost in time, the gentile South, the Lost Cause of it all is such a key element of the novel that it might as well have been in 1927 in the days right before things came crashing down, just like 1985 was part of the yuppie days right before the post-Reagan recession. 

This is also the kind of book that introduces a small boy in a way where you can feel his incoming death and how that will unmoor everyone, but what will stick with me is how out of time the whole story feels. It longs for a time past and considers the South to be a completely different world from the rest of the country (and certainly the East), and maybe that's right. 

Grade: B

Book 13: A Knight of the Seven Kingdoms by George R. R. Martin

I started reading this book at the beginning of the year, before the first season of the show based on these novellas came out, but waited to read the second and third novellas until after. And that may have been a mistake, only because I enjoyed the versions of the characters on the show much more than I did the ones in the novellas. I was excited to read these because after reading GRRM's "history" of Fire and Blood I thought that I would probably enjoy his actual stories better than half-told wikipedia entries of a made-up history. And I was right, I did, but unfortunately I think I may have lost a bit of my taste for his style of writing at this point - I remember loving the ASOIAF books that I read, but I'm not sure if I still would if I went back to reread them now. I look forward to more stories of Dunk and Egg on my screen, but I hope that the creators of that show continue to adapt rather than transcribe his work for the series. 

Grade: B 

Book 12: Psychopomp & Circumstance by Eden Royce

A book club book that I didn't manage to read in time to participate, but wanted to read anyway. This is a novella that felt like it didn't get to the meat of the story until about 2/3rds of the way through it, and then I wanted more at that point. It's a story set in Reconstruction, in a magical realism world, about a young Black woman who accepts the responsibility of planning her aunt's funeral service. She longs to have freedom from her mother and from who her mother would have her marry, and there's a secret at the heart of why her mother and her aunt were estranged, and there's so much of interest here, but the pace of the story just didn't quite work for me - too slow to begin with, and then much too fast, when I would have loved more time. The world was really compelling, though, and the concept of easing a person's passing within the magical systems of this place was beautiful. 

Grade: B

Book 11: The Language of Liars by S.L. Huang

A bookclub book! Specifically a novella, and it's the sort of space scifi mystery type story that I'm so glad is the length that it is. This is both because it involves lots of different species and translation and beings moving through space in ways that my brain simply will not picture while I'm reading, and so there was a lot of me just letting certain descriptive elements wash over me rather than stressing about it all. And I'm glad I did, because boy does it eventually pack a real emotional punch. 

The very short narrative logline for this story is that there's this alien Ro who's a linguist, and his species has the ability to jump into a different species and observe their language and report back. He's kind of an anthropologist, and they're trying to figure out how to help this other species, and so he jumps and learns much more than he was expecting to, in a variety of ways. I don't actually want to say much more because, well, that's the story, but in many way it's more of a morality play than a full story, which made it an ideal bookclub book to discuss and the read itself went by fast enough and gave me a lot to think about. Not my favorite kind of book but very compelling! 

Grade: B

Book 10: The Odyssey by Homer (Translated by Emily Wilson)

I had never read a translation of The Odyssey, and I decided I wanted to before seeing the Nolan adaptation this summer. I'm really glad I did, both because I think that knowing what Nolan chose to do with his adaptation adds to the experience of the movie, and because this translation is incredibly readable and powerful on its own. There is a confidence in using language based on meter more than lyricism, and the simplicity of the language is almost deceptive - this translation doesn't force you to struggle, which makes the impact of the events the language is describing greater at times. Wilson's work made me want to read a whole bunch more, especially her introduction, and that's a sure sign of me being affected by a book. 

Grade: A 

Book 9: The Starseekers by Nicole Glover

Well, sometimes you read a book for book club and every single person shows up and says that didn't work for me!!! and it's a good time. This book is kind of like Hidden Figures but it's also a murder mystery and magic and also Indiana Jones and also allegedly a romance? And if you think that sounds like too many genres it sure is; there are seven different plots and not a lick of narrative urgency in any of them, unfortunately. The best I can say for it is that it was nice to read a contemporary piece of speculative fiction that wasn't a dystopia but also boy I wanted this to be better. 

Grade: C

Reread: The Summer War by Naomi Novik

Note: I know the author socially. 

A reread for my book club! Honestly I loved it even more on reread. I thought the agony of the neverending nature of the conflict came through even more this time around, and boy I just really want the resolution to work for everyone!! Just a beautifully constructed story. 

Grade: A

Book 8: Benefit by Siobhan Phillips

A book that made me realize how much a story set in the 2000s really is a period piece now. Which is fine! It's nice to know that I'm not alone in looking back at the decade of my twenties and reflecting on how it has shaped, oh, all of current American society. This one is also about the false promise of academia, which is a topic many many books out there tackle at the moment for obvious reasons, and about what it means to be a part of the elite culture and what it's built on. The chapters on the history and present day realities of sugar production really took my breath away, and the specific depiction of the main character's lesbian friend Greta and her marriage and child-rearing felt almost unbearably recognizable. It's extremely first novel-y, in that you can feel how many of the chapters could have been short stories, and they're explicitly playing with form and structure and tone so you're always aware of the shift, but I don't mean that in a pejorative way, especially because it fits the themes of the novel so well. I haven't been reading a ton of literary fiction these days, but this is one of the good ones. 

Grade: B

Book 7: The Shots You Take by Rachel Reid

Another vacation book! This one is a perfect post-retirement hockey romance by the author of the Game Changers series, but it's a standalone in a separate universe. Adam and Riley were a d-man pairing and best friends and roommates who were also more than all that, until Adam freaked out and married a woman and broke Riley's heart. So Riley requested a trade and then retired early from hockey, and they didn't see each other for over a decade until Riley's dad died and Adam showed up at the funeral in Riley's tiny Nova Scotian seaside village, where Riley spent five summers when they were young players together. 

I really enjoyed both the second chance romance and the fantasy of owning a small house right on the water with a garden and having a wonderful queer friends group. The conflict of when they were players together made perfect sense, and if some of the resolution felt a bit too easy, especially coming so fast after Riley losing his beloved father, the characterization and chemistry is strong enough for me to buy it. A lovely read on a rainy weekend away. 

Grade: A

Book 6: Fall Into You by Dylan Morrison

Time for some vacation reads at a house in the woods! The first one is this extremely classic gay romance about a guy named Will who fled his parents' farm when he was 18 and never looked back, until his father died and left him a farm. When he returns, he meets Casey, who had been taking care of the apple farm for the final 6 years of Will's dad's life, and sparks fly! Is selling the farm to the real estate developer the right move? Was Will ever really happy living in the big city? I bet you know the answers to those questions, and as always, the fun is in the telling of it. I would have liked a bit more development of the romance between Will and Casey, but overall I really liked this story of someone finding the right version of home for them. 

Grade: B

Book 5: Sheep Calm and Merry On by Ashlyn Kane

This is a perfectly adequate Christmas romance novella in which two retired hockey players end up in a bit of a Canadian shack situation and realize that maybe they're meant to be together! It's cute but doesn't do anything more than what's on the tin, and even at a novella length still had to invent a reason for a second location/is he going to call me bit of drama. It's fine!

Grade: B

2026 Master List

I am posting my 2026 Master List in May, which honestly feels pretty appropriate for this year! But it's sunny and warm out, so maybe this is the start I actually need for this project this year.  

I also didn't read a ton of books in the first third of the year, largely because all of my narrative brain space was taken up by two television shows I remain obsessed with, the writing I want to do for both of them, the Olympics, and two other ongoing sports leagues. To put it bluntly, my ability to focus on new books was pretty bad, but less because of everything going on in the world in 2026 and more because I had too much else to focus on. So! I'm not mad about that, even though I do want to read a lot more than I did in the first part of the year. 

Other things! Last year felt like an off year for me reading-wise, but I read 45 new books and 6 rereads, and that's almost one book a week! As is true most years, I read mostly in chunks, and about half of the books on my list were books that had already been on my list at the beginning of the year, and half of them were new additions. That doesn't bode well for the idea of me making a dent in my current list, but well that's the nature of this project. I am also getting better at not finishing books or even just taking a book off the list before even starting it if I feel like it's just not actually what I'm interested in anymore. 

Anyway, here is this year's list! I'm starting with 235 books, and while I do not expect to get to bookcase zero by the end of the year, I would like to end the year with closer to a hundred rather than two hundred. 

Book 4: The Larks Still Bravely Singing by Aster Glenn Gray

Set in the dying days of World War I, two former public school boy friends find each other again while convalescing from the front. One has lost a leg, the other an arm, and they begin to rekindle the romance that never quite bloomed while they were at school together. 

I really loved so much of this - it's an era that I keep going back to, in part because the brutality of that war destroyed so much and never quite got dealt with. That's a bit of an issue with this novel, for me. I appreciated the lack of a quick fix for either of them, but I also wanted an ending and a resolution that presented at least a clearer way forward, if not a complete emotional and mental recovery for both of them. I don't entirely know how to do that beyond a magical cure for PTSD before anyone really knew what that was, but I felt more off-balance by the ending than I had hoped.

Grade: B

Book 3: Deck the Halls with Secret Agents by Astor Glenn Gray

What a charming bite sized Christmas novella! This is actually much more in line with what I expected Honeypot to be like - it's two secret agents who have been secretly fucking whenever they encountered each other on opposite sides of the Cold War who find themselves without a clear purpose in the early 1990s. They've both been sent to an English country house to steal incriminating letters at a Christmas party, and wouldn't you know there's just the right kind of bed for them to fall into together. This had almost no real conflict and I had a great time reading it. 

Grade: A  

Reread: A Brightness Long Ago by Guy Gavriel Kay

The last of my GGK rereads before I finally read his most recent two novels! This book is such a curious one - it takes place only fifty years prior to the events of Children of Earth and Sky, and it connects to them but in the kind of way where as soon as I finished this one I wanted to reread that one again, so I could better slot it all in. It's also curious in that it's deliberately to the side of major world events - the fall of Sarantium (aka Constantinople) and the remaking of the world's order, is out of focus while the almost petty citystate wars of Batiara (aka Italy) take center stage. This book takes a long time to fully immerse myself in the stakes of the story, and as soon as it does everyone is hit from the side by much more important developments. Which I suppose is reflective of living through the world in real time; I can formulate many reasons why a Canadian author might have written this in the aftermath of Trump's first election. It does however mean that it's the least sticky of all of GGK's novels for me, and while I had a lovely time becoming reacquainted with these characters, none of them burrowed deep into my chest as others have. It was still a remarkable book to finish while visiting Istanbul for the first time, however. 

Grade: B

Book 2: Honeytrap by Aster Glenn Gray

This is a gay romance novel that spans multiple decades and follows the romance of a soviet spy and an American spy who are partnered to solve a mystery of sorts and embark on a roadtrip across late 1950s America. It's both a charming romance in which both of them are hiding a secret (Gennady is supposed to be honey trapping Daniel, and Daniel has been demoted for having a gay affair with another FBI agent), and a look at how the closet hurts people's lives over many decades. I expected something different from this novel--less of a historical examination and more of a classic romance novel in which two characters decide their love requires them to risk it all--and it took me a bit to come around to the slower, more agonized love depicted. But maybe we need a slightly more honest version of this story right now. 

Grade: B

Book 1: A Physical Education by Casey Johnston

First book of the year! This is a memoir by an author whose lifting newsletter I've been a reader of for many years at this point. It's a really interesting accounting of how she came to integrate her sense of self with her sense of having a physical body as an adult. It's not a self-help book, but it's also a book that made me think a lot about my own relationship to my body, and how I do and don't consider it to be the same thing as Me. It's hard not to read a book like this without searching for the answer, for the key to fixing my own relationship to my body, and it's too honest to peddle that kind of absolution. I both respect it more for not and wish it had, for obvious reasons. But it did make me think that it's at least possible to change, which is worth a lot. 

Grade: A